In between waiting and willing Cubling to leave my tummy, I'm trying to do useful things. Not very successfully I have to admit. Strange things happen to your mind at times like this and I find it almost impossible to focus or concentrate on anything not pregnancy or baby related. It's sad, it annoys me, it angers me even. Above all, it's not me. I've got a pile of REALLY GOOD BOOKS I long to read, but my mind simply meanders to other places. So I try the simpler stuff, things that don't take much time and can be done in between.

For example, we've got a new gadget. A HD camcorder. Apparently, this is a really special camcorder (I don't know about these things so don't ask me for details) and it needs to be figured out. So, I can record on it, playback, and now even transfer files to my computer. They are VERY large, just as well I have an external hard disk, because my computer wouldn't be able to cope with many clips. Now, because this High Definition format is so cool and futuristic, it's also not yet compatible with computers or file formats that play videos. To me, this sounds a bit daft, but hej, what do I know. I do know that this means files have to be converted. So I'm trying to figure that bit out.

To share clips of our darling cubling (once she actually comes out of mummy's tummy), I've set up a youtube account. I could now enter a rant about youtube, but suffice to say that it is anything but intuitive and I can already see severe difficulties ahead of me, trying to explain to my non-English speaking dad how to register so he can actually watch the videos. I guess you're not allowed to complain if something is for free, but I need to be convinced that if someone like me who is reasonably computer literate and a semi geek is struggling, it will be an impossibility to navigate your way around for someone who is not so keen with computers.

Anyway, on the pregnancy side again I have to say that I'm very pleased with the midwives at the Southern General Hospital who really managed to calm me down and give me back my sleep last night. I'm 41+6 today, and after checking that baby is doing fine and things are moving, if slowly, along, they assured me that induction wasn't necessary at all but they would do it if I asked for it. They are happy for me go over 42 weeks even and assured me that I will go into labour naturally. Soon. And it looks like all is set for a natural delivery as well. I'm both impatient now and overwhelmed that cubling will be with us in the next few days most likely. I can't wait to experience birth and I'm trying to sleep as much during the day and at night to gather energy for this. Thanks to the hypnosis CDs I can actually go asleep for a surreal part of the day. It is getting hard though to stay patient and calm. My hormones are playing havoc with my mood, I feel utterly confined to the house because of SPD pain (i.e. can't walk) and my inability to concentrate on things I usually love to do makes me quite irritable. Butbutbut, only a little while longer (even though I think I've said this for the past 8 weeks or so by now....).

Sigh.